Act 14 : I have evolved to a better more confident more alive ME

I don’t believe in fate, if you ask any couples, at some point of their life’s, they got to have met the spouse they’re married. At some point of their live right ? I mean be it love at first sight or 日久生情 or 仇家变情人.

If you have never met a girl at some other country, never msn, never Friendster, never online chat, there’s no possibilities of both being friends, lovers, couples. That’s why there are more strangers in your life than having friends you know.

If you work backward based on all info’s and past experiences, you fall in love with someone you thought know very well from groups of people you have met and probably know abit well. In short, you choose the best options
Out of all that you know, while neglecting some other more compatible persons who at that moment is a complete stranger to you.

I find it scary because its practically impossible for me to know everyone in this world, in fact I might not even know myself that well as my mind portraits who I am to me but behave differently at other people’s point of view.

I’m scared to make the choices of who should I fall in love with for she was chosen out of a tiny minute fraction of the world populations. Some people quoted 茫茫人海中找到了您. How can they possibly know everyone inside this world ? 茫茫认识和见过的人当中您是最好的 would be more appropriate. It is fact. We are just making a random choice of who we will live and grow old and till death do us part.

Therefore, those who believe in fate should stay single, and if you believe in fate and still married out of like 200 people you have met in youe life in this world, you are obviously deceiving yourself to think you have achieve happiness and its part of your fate. The only fate you’re right is you have made a choice, a decision and stick to that decision no matter what. That’s what some people called 命运是掌握在自己的手中，爱情是自己去争取的.

By the way, if you don’t understand what I have wrote, don’t fret, I don’t either, I just wrote whatever shoots out of my mind and I find this topic to be an important guidelines for people who are lost or 迷惑, just like my past 25 years of lives, but I got out of the maze, released of my Ex-life philosophy. I no longer hesitate, I shall make my decision and control my own fate. My past 25 years have been dark and raining, today my world is bright and colourful, its beautiful until I can sing out “Life is beautiful” I won’t hold up and deny anymore. Today I shall exert my past secrets and announce it for it is the truth and nothing but the truth!!!!!

My favourite food is lor mee with a lot of vinegar, sharks fin with a lot of vinegar, I like to build gundam models but I’m lazy to paint and paste their standard stickers. I got 好感 to a girl when I am form 3, I’d gift her flower bouquets and scented candles to her during those valentine events organized. her name is Susan Tan, I liked her and still liked her still, whether love or not I’m not sure but because of distance apart, I can’t made up my mind to express my feeling. I’m always in a dilemma and its not because I’m scared to confess, there’s this considerations of future meet ups would be exceptionally difficult and stuffs, so I decided not to confess and take this secret to the coffin is a decision I previously made. But it sure is damn hard to keep something like this sealed and locked away and keys thrown away. I’d had enough of cooping it up, Im gonna bursts it all out right here right now.

I like elmo and I think im obsessed by its colour and voice. I hate queing but I’m a considerate person, I always take into considerations of other peoples/strangers feelings whenever and whatever I do, I like occupying my time with many things, but I barely can think of anything worth doing, always end up finding games to play.

I liked bowling, I like the sensations whenever I’m in control of the game, I get upset on stuffs and people easily, I’m a hot headed person but easy to control kind of person. Im easygoing or cincai, I everything also cincai unless I specific bout something then I really mean it and then the hot headedness kicks in hahahah.

I am an emo guy, I can work whole day without plannings afterwork and I can suddenly take leave or after work go to beach see ocean or go anywhere peculiar or go mountain see sights and basically think about life and my future and sometimes think of wad I did in the past and stuffs…….alone
There are tons of things I wanna say, but there isn’t anything I can think of to say anymore. So that’s all for now, kindly anticipate more posts by the NEW BETTER ME^^