Act 9 : crap dun noe wad title to put.....nabeh

“Life is simple, its just not easy”

I had a through thought about it, partially its kinda true and almost can be used to summarized one man’s life story. Probably MY life journey. Life is simple because we are born with nothing and when we are deceased and departing from this materialistic world, we left with nothing as well. Someone has told me once, we DID leave with something. The knowledge, the memories, the pain, the feeling, the passion, the love, the hates.
Basically, something not materialistic and cannot be seen nor gauge. And we often use own perceptions to gauge them like I love you, im deeply in love with you, I super love you arrr, I love you till I can kill you, etc.

Therefore, its possibly all these are categorized into 1 thing ? an entity ? a force ? probably soul ? cause we always linked body and soul right ? don’t u think the anwers has ALWAYS been around us ?
Knowledge X memories + [pain + passion + love + hates + envy + jealousy = (FEELING)] equals to soul.
Another quote from an anime I watched, “IF a name for someone is fake, then the very existence of someone who lies and deceive are fake as well”

There are something in this world that is so beautiful that they cannot be owned. And that is also the reason why they are precious and beautiful. And even if I have the chance to owned this beautiful thing, im not sure what my answer will be, as certain beautiful things is better left untouched or unscathed so that their beauty is preserved and maintained and I don’t want to stain your pride. – xxxxx xxx, I JUZ WANT YOU TO KNOW , Your so beautiful~~ to me!!!!!

my brains a bit loose controlled. Now I am typing whatever it thinks now haha. And im too lazy to keep it controlled down. Its seriously a boring week. Nothing much worth mentioning. Oops, NOTHING TO MENTIONED AT ALLLLLLL. Gone afew round gyms, wasted countless hours on day dreaming, watching manga’s, woot talk about that, I saw an anime previously and it ends in middle, and recently my friend copy ninja kakashi given me a anime manga heaven link : www.onemanga.com/ its ZOMG BBQ PWNER. Excellent to kill time with. Sweat……..better get back to work liao.

Act:8 Armageddon / Doomsday ?

Recently checked that by 21st Dec 2012 will be doomsday. Theres many speculations of how it may occur.
But the reason im freaked is because, its not just 1, but 4 or 5 speculations that that particular day IS doomsday.
Probably a coincidence, but what if it was a sign from god ? a sign to let us know and prepare to the day to come forth ?
A few is Oracles from Indian tribes some few hundread years ago, maya calendar made few thousand years ago ends at 21st Dec 2012, NASA discovered a comet the size of I dun recall wad island liao. But its big and its moving at light speed. Which means it can travel measuring of mach3 or above. E.g our mode of measurement in space. Anyway its moving to us at that speed and anything in between course can leads it shoots direct to earth or scratch thru would have been deadly enough. The other possible speculations is global warming, which at the rate polar caps melting, it is estimated around that time as well.

After this news, honestly I didn’t give any thoughts. Should I do something that I dun get to do before ? should I tell her I have crushes on her since secondary 3 ? so which means by 2012, Its erm…..14 years ROFL LMAO. Im such an idiot. Haha. Maybe its also fated that we are not destined. So , 2012 21st DEC. I cant even get to celebrate my birthday that year sobzzzz. Why cant it 3 or 4 days later ? why my birthday has to be Christmas eve ? why O why…

Well, at the point of time, none of them confirms it that doomsday will be 21st Dec 2012, its all speculations and predictions. Although u and know it well enough, world can end anytime. After watching thru all scfi fi movies, if people can imagine it to happens, its not surprised IF THEY DO HAPPENDS. I think the world need to make a time machine and go back 1000 years ago to prepare for this cathastrophe. Oops or we DID ? and they came to us as the forms of predictions thati juz mentioned earlier ?

Anyone watched the movie TITAN A.E ? its quite a captivating movie seriously. Extinctions, the last of mankind.
Words that makes you touched yet scared. I have no idea why I loved such movies, sci fi end of world things.
Probably im a loser, not rich, nothing to loose, no love ones to loose, nothing in this world is making me worth living for 1 more day. Maplestory SMS perhaps. But its not something that I would have done if it’s the last hour of doomsday. I have mentally prepared that should I die, im prepared to go to hell and get tortured by devil himself.
As I myself knows, im not a such good or perfect man. If im on positive sides of the day, I will help elderly’s, gives donations or charity’s. but if im on the opposite side of the day, I give hell to all who come near me. Acting like a jackass asshole. Inconsiderate cold blooded disgusting brat that thinks the whole world owes me everything.

That’s how I feel at the moment and I cant seem to find a light out of tunnels. All my life im always inside the tunnels. The moment I sees a light , im onto the next tunnel again. So that’s why my life’s happy moments is always those glimpse of sunshine’s before going into the next tunnels. Haiz memorable….^^ so as you can see,
I cant even give security and reassurance to myself, how the hell Im gonna give love and and security to anyone ?
Mayb I should take my friends suggestions and go find a Burmese or Vietnamese wife and take a big shot of whisky early in the morning, get drunk inside the tunnel till the end of my life before I go to hell.

i made a few mistakes in my life. i made alot of people unhappy, i made some people cry, i made some people angry, and occasionally, it all comes back to haunts me and i juz wanna let all who suffer from me, none of my actions is the actions of the real Johnny Woo. its juz my ways of expressing discontents, anger and all. and i regretted it most of the days. as i am a man, thick skinned, i will carry to apologetic words to my grave. unless
you request it from me then i will find at the corner of my heart, the sincerity of apology to you.

Act 7: SCC vs BG vs Heroes

It’s the first day of the week and im been emoing since 8pm last night.
I am emoing cause I dun know why im emoing in the first place.
wandering around, walking around, moving around, AIMLESS
it’s a super uncomfortable feeling that I did consider ending this miserable life…….yet again
well words came easier than actual applications. And im glad it did.
Otherwise I would have committed suicide and jump off mrt platforms at ang mo kio ler. Haha….(cold smile)

watched Sarah connors chronicles(SCC) season 1 already. My first impressions……. Battlestar galactica (BG)
is much worth kiling your time with. However in storyline based, BG seems 1 notch higher than SCC
screenplay and details and explanations no doubt SCC is more straight forwarded. If you've watched terminator 1,2 and 3 you wont get lost in this SCC tv series.one thing I noticed, the T888 cyborg sent to protect the connors obviously isnt the mayor Arnold, which is quite a shame but replaced with this hot chio bus. So im kinda okay with the replacement. One thing difference on this is actually the cyborgs hot, oops did I said it again out loud ? Well these series cyborgs acts more like humans, they can eat, still doesn’t sleep and kept elaborating " I never sleeps" mayb it’s a key word for some quizzes later part of the seasons …rofl

Story started off with a classic Sarah ran from police, kiled someone and thought believed to change judgement day which later on this hot T888 came and say skynet is rebuilt by some other people and it is unknowned who built it. so with names like finding needles in haystack, connors on future planned and sent fighters and this hot T888 to the past 1stly to avoid his mother dying in 2001 by cancer by meetting her at 1999 and teleported to future 2007 present day. then she got to know about 9/11 and all. Links to everything related to the cyborgs. Terorism. Then from there on, its kinda extra extra extra whip cream over whip cream thing. Making it kinda like a soap opera dragging thing WHILE showing u details of the terminator technology world. Which I find it still barely make it and didn’t spoilt the adrenaline rush. one thing I noticed out of the 13 or 15 chapters, first till 5th chapter, I barely wanan continue, somewhere 7th chapter im getting more excited to know what happens next,till the last which it makes you WAIT for season 2 BLOODY HELL.

why dun they juz link it to the Heroes series ? Save the cheerleader, save the world. Save the waitresses son (leader of rebel fighters), save the world. Honestly, Heroes ismuch better storyline to begin with. Although the nemesis part is abit unbalanced still it is considered good to me. Heroes that is^^

Act 6: Words of encouragement

something i have felt thru last past few week. cant seem to express the feeling other than writing it in this form.
its the feeling i had that got me thru last week.

Darkening moments haunted us
visiting our guilt conscience day by day
leaving scars and recalling memory of pain
whispering words of our losses and grief
chilling winds seeps into the skin and spine
distorting truth and arousing suspicions
walking on the ledge of death
fear for the hopes turns into despair

In times of despair, I fought
fought for the darkness to dissapear
instincts tells me never to submit to defeat
prayed for a moment of peace and safety
courage to overcome the odds
bravery beyong measures
measured equal with my strong faith
no minions shall stand between us
no obstacles are hard enough
no mountains gonna yield my determination

Faith tooks the best of me
faith in everything enlightens me
faith in hope blessed me
faith in love preserved me
In the name of father, hold on to your faith
standing firm and withstand all fear and obstacles
never to turn back and run away
facing everything with faith and courage
for it is the circle of life beyong the next

Basically, wad i felt is, there will be times we will be tested by pressure, dark cloudy moments with
no lights at the tunnel end. However since its unavoidable, keep your mind and faith strong.
never to submit to defeat and fought with all you got disregard how dire the circumstances were.
and if you hold onto your faith, SURELY, Spring is around the corner, where victory awaits you
telling you that, you have conquered and yet survived another test in your journey of life.

Act 5 :Fight 2 Live On

Standing on top by a thin rope

Upholding onto the lifeline and never look back

Shining rays of hopes thru the clouded storm

Amidst around the crashing waves

Neverending passion to move forward

Thunder of chaos bestowed upon us

A guided flame came thru the Thundering clouds

Now is the moment WE FIGHT.